I would say overall I am a pretty happy person. I am happy with my life, my circumstances, and my surroundings – to include relationships that surround me. But…I have always had an irrational fear of tragedy. I think it may be from movies or TV shows – when someone’s life is going too well, there has to be some devastating event that settles the score. When my life is going exceptionally well, I have this horrible anxiety hidden in me that there is something awful that will happen. Something inside me tells me that in order to deserve happiness, I must conquer something. Jesus Calling Devotional by Sarah Young says:
You are surrounded by a sea of problems, but you are face to face with Me, your peace. As long as you focus on Me you are safe, if you gaze too long at the myriad of problems around you, you will sink under the weight of your burdens. When you start to sink simply call out, “Help me Jesus” and I will lift you up.
Sarah Young, Jesus Calling
Focusing on Fear
If I find myself focusing on the problems that the world may surround me with, or even the POSSIBLE problems, I am putting my faith in the fact that the world is bad, waiting for the world to prove me right. I might say something like “this could happen” or “that could happen.” Let me tell you something :
THE POWER OF YOUR WORDS IS INCREDIBLE
Keep asking and you will receive what you ask for. I fully believe that if you keep speaking something, you will receive what you speak. So I have to ask and remind myself – Why would I speak any negativity or tragedy into my life?
Matthew 7:7
In Hebrew 13:6, we are reminded to say with CONFIDENCE “the Lord is my helper.” He is here to help us live our best life. Why do we live in fear?
And then in Deuteronomy 5:5 he says to not be afraid or be in fear, for the Lord our God will fight for us Himself. You matter to God.
Fear is an emotion from the Enemy.
God didn’t create us to live in fear of our lives. He has blessed me with an incredible life. Yes, I may experience some downs but the ups are what make it all worth it. I don’t need to fear happiness. We may or may not feel like we DESERVE to be happy but in reality we don’t deserve a thing. We are all sinners. One sin is just as bad as another. But the Good News is that:
It is finished.
Christ died for our sins so that we had the chance to choose a happiness that we don’t deserve. If you are ever feeling like me, remind yourself that we can find peace in Him. Learn more about finding your self-worth in Him in my Only God Can Do That devotional.
