Only God can do that. Sounds pretty basic, right? I’ve noticed lately that I have been somewhat scatter brained. I have been focusing on too many things. I’m not sure why, though. It could be the fact that I am nearly 8 months pregnant and not sleeping right, but I’m not sold on just that. It could also be that my family is experiencing a lot of change – a new baby is almost here, we are about to be moving for the 7th time in less than 5 years, we have lots of projects to do in the new house before our baby’s arrival, etc. All of this has made me overwhelmed and exhausted. Have I been focusing on my relationship with the Lord?
Sometimes, at the end of the day, I don’t even know what to do with myself. I am uncomfortable in the worst ways. Mentally, physically and emotionally. When I get in bed do I “relax” and peruse the internet? I’ve tried that and it doesn’t help my mood. With my laptop sitting on a pile of blankets, I will click and scroll and skim until my eyes can’t hold themselves open anymore and then shut my laptop and call it night, all to start again the next day.
I am reminded in the emptiness, that I have not been focusing on my relationship with God.
It’s not just me either – my husband Bryce is utterly exhausted. At the end of the day, I know he is worn from holding up our family. He has done an incredible job at trying to keep me grounded during all the changes while working long hours and most times cooking for us. The Lord has blessed me with an amazing husband. He is so wonderful that sometimes I think I can find everything in him, that he can provide me with all the love, comfort, support, and happiness that I need. It isn’t fair for me to believe that, even for a minute.
This puts an incredible amount of pressure on him to do something that humans are not even capable of doing. And then the other day, it dawned on me. I need to focus on my relationship with the Lord. It needs effort every single day, just like any other relationship. When I am close to Him, my heart is full.
Sometimes I think I can find everything I need in my Husband.
That doesn’t mean I do not love my husband with every bit of my heart. It doesn’t mean we don’t have confide in one another. We still need to comfort and support one another and recommit ourselves to each other every single day. But we must first focus on our relationship with the Lord.
| Putting God first doesn’t compete with human relationships, it protects them. He will guide you in your relationships and marriage. You will feel fulfilled and whole, even when you are feeling overwhelmed or sad. |
Our hearts cannot be full with Him.
“God also brought me up out of a horrible pit, out of the miry clay,
and set my feet upon a rock, and established my steps.”
Psalm 40:2
Let’s stop trying to fill emptiness with things or people. It’s not fair to do that to someone and it will eventually result in disappointment. Fill emptiness with the Lord’s love. Only God can do that.
It is infinite.
If my heart is overwhelmed and I cannot hear Your voice. I’ll hold on to what is true though I cannot see.
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